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I am dead beat and feel chilled. No, I am not in the UK anymore. We arrived back this morning at about seven-ish. I managed to doze off for a bit just now but I just couldn’t sleep. The thoughts keep coming back. About five of these ‘nightmares’  in the past 40 days. They aren’t nightmares as many know them. In my opinion, I think these current nightmares are more torturous than the usual types. I sleep for a while but my mind suddenly gets woken by a disturbing thought. What’s worse is that I havn’t the foggiest idea what that thought is all about. But I just its disturbing my brain and keeps me from sleeping. Usually I cannot sleep the whole night and I just have to keep my eyes open or the thought will return. It’s quite frustrating. The first one happened on the last day of my exams. Really bad. I felt nauseous and all and didn’t sleep a wink. Instead I spent most of my time walking about the dark house crying or sitting in the bathroom trying to puke my head off! It has happened twice in Sg, not counting just now, and twice in the UK. If there is anything I really want this Christmas, it’s that these recurring ‘nightmares’ go away. Like I am constantly reminded, bad thoughts and things that trouble us are not from God but of the devil. So just pray. Pray really hard that I don’t have these. It just really gets me down. Please, God.

Love,

amyruth.

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It has been freezing here with tempreatures below 0. UN nfortunayely no snow yet. maybe on Christmas. But it can’t be wet or too cold.

Been to various things so far like visiting relatives and friends and to a variety of museums. My favourite so far was The Museum Of Costumes. There were hardly any other people and we got to try on corsets. Except for the fact that they weren’t that tight and they weren’t the real thing, it was a good try in squeezing ourselves. Got a few pictures. Will post them up when I return.

Anyway. Got to make a move. Love you all and a very very Merry Blessed Christmas!!

I am really drained. I haven’t been spending sufficient time with God. It is thought that holidays away from the humdrum of everyday life poses the opportunity to draw closer to God. But I feel my laziness has taken its toll and I am using my spare time to read other not-so-important reading material. Please pray that I will have the discipline to spend time with God. Even then, I must say that these past weeks or so has been rather refreshing likened to the splashing of iced water on ones weary face.

Food has been fantastic weather at home, Chipstead, or outside in a restaurant of nursing home.The weather has been chilled with temperatures below 10 degrees most of the time. Liz is arriving tomorrow at about quarter past six in the morning.I am starting to miss the humidity and familiarity of
Singapore but I really should not complain because I know the likelihood is that I am going to have my spirits dampened on leaving the
UK! Ironic isn’t it.I have finally met my almost-one year-old cousin, Yasmin. She is adorable with big brown eyes and long black eye lashes. Browner eyes than mine! Her smile and giggle is contagious and I do believe I will miss her in time to come. I am just afraid that like every other cousin we have here, she will not know us and a relationship with her as she grows up will be awkward.Anyway, I am going to leave now and go outside to the shops.Love to you all,

amyruth.xxxxxooooo