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so i’d love to wear a skirt, stand in the middle of a green field with the sun on my face and wind in my hair and just spin round and round.

now that would put a smile on this face of mine.

i can spin alone. but i think it’d be a lot nicer with a friend.

So I found this on a real old post from a friend’s blog. Just what happened?

Over the sea and far away. She’s waiting like an Iceberg. Waiting to change, But she’s cold inside. She wants to be like the water.

All the muscles tighten in her face. Buries her soul in one embrace. They’re one and the same just like water.
Then the fire fades away. But most of everyday is full of tired excuses. But it’s too hard to say. I wish it were simple but we give up easily. You’re close enough to see that You’re…. the other side of the world
to me.

On comes the panic light. Holding on with fingers and feelings alike. But the time has come to move along.

Can you help me? Can you let me go? And can you still love me when you can’t see me anymore?

amyruthxxoo

3 months. the thrill is still strong.

3 months. the thrill is still strong.

 

sometimes aiming high gets us in places we wish we were never in.

sometimes aiming high gets us in places we wish we were never in.

one day i'll grow old.and maybe one day i'll grow old in a house like this.

one day i'll grow old.and maybe one day i'll grow old in a house like this.

i’m not quite sure why i’m blogging now.just felt like I needed to.

I keep getting on and off the carousel. not exactly safe jumping on and off it.
I do hugs you know. Real nice hugs. plus I like hugs so I really appreciate them.But in today’s society going around hugging people isn’t exactly the done thing. It’s sad how unhuggable this world can be at times.No no, I ain’t planning to randomly hug a stranger. Don’t worry if you do worry.

I’m babbling nonsense. But that’s okay.

I wanna be bright and sparkly. But it’s getting kinda hard.hohum.

amyruthxxoo.

It has taken me this long to realise it. But I think I have pretty much figured it all out now. It was all an act. Yes, an act.

I’d love to believe it. I’d love to believe a lot of things. But I know that in this world it is highly impossible. That’s real sad.

I figured that the reason I was crushed was because I was trying to guard my own heart. I was trying to protect myself. But if it’s me against this world, then I am doomed. No matter how careful, or distant, or cold I try to be, I will eventually get really hurt or I will stop loving. And I do not wish for either.

So how should it have been? My heart should have been guarded by Jesus. That’s what would have kept me safe. The thing is, Jesus guards my heart only for as long and as much as I let him. But this I know, if I choose to have him guard my heart from the devil and all this world has to offer, whoever wants to get to my heart will have to go through him. Just like the boy/man who wishes to be personally involved in the matters of my heart will have to go through my family and friends. No, I am not saying that with Him as the guardian of my heart I will never be hurt by this world but rather that when I am hurt (which will be minimized) He will be so much closer to help me through it all. Whoever He lets close to my heart will be there to play a part in protecting my heart from this world and all it has to offer. No, Jesus does not NEED someone to help Him protect me, He just provides this opportunity for the excercising of brotherly and sisterly love in Christ Jesus. He could jolly well protect His own creation. Man is not vital to him when it comes to handling the world He created.

In the same way, I pray that when Jesus lets me into the heart of another person, I will be able to help protect him/her.

Come and make my heart Your home.
Come and be everything I am and all I know.
Search me through and through ’till my heart becomes a home for You.
A home for You, Lord.
A home for You, Lord.
Let everything I do open up,
A door for You to come through,
And that my heart would be a place where You want to be.

amyruthxxoo

Sometimes we accomplish things far greater than our expectations.

Sometimes we accomplish things far greater than our expectations.

Sometimes the best things are the simple ones.

Sometimes the best things are the simple ones.Robot's heart is smaller than his brain.

 

Robot's heart is smaller than his brain.

Robot's heart is smaller than his brain.I'm so light I could fly.

Life can get a bit over crowded when we mix reality with fantasy.

Life can get a bit over crowded when we mix reality with fantasy.

As children, we believed that our world was the biggest there was.

As children, we believed that our world was the biggest there was.

We are all do different yes so alike at the same time.

We are all do different yes so alike at the same time.

Sticking with those just like you can be your best option.

Sticking with those just like you can be your best option.

 amyruthxxoo

Prayer – so many times we under estimate the power of those spirit-driven words that we lift up to the Lord with our earnest hearts. I was so apprehensive about going for this, especially since I would be going alone, such that I went late in the hope that no one would notice and kick up a fuss. I was only going because I knew it would please Mummy and being too tired or too busy was just a lousy excuse. But do I regret going? No, totally not. I needed this time of prayer. I have been having a great burden for evangelising since a very long long time ago. This poly day of prayer was a time to lift our schools (NP, SP, NYP, RP & TP) to the Lord. We lifted up the believers, non-believers and everything else that concerned our schools. Yes, I prayed for every single one of you. We prayed for every single one of you.

I know, now you’re probably thinking “well that wouldn’t include me cos she wouldn’t remember me and they don’t even know me”. But I do and He does. Which makes it all the more amazing because He knows everything about you, the hairs on your head, your explicit needs, your desires, your hurts, your joy. He knows it all. 

Jesus said “then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free”. We, children of God know this precious, envied truth. It is the truth that all man desires, seeks and yearns for. They need this truth for their survival. It is all they need. The truth is not ours to keep but ours to share!! How will they know the truth if we do not tell them, do not show them, do not know it ourselves and do not pray that they will seek this truth. We can keep telling them about this truth, but if their hearts have not been prepared by God to receive this life-changing truth because we failed to intercede for them, then how will they long for, let alone receive, this truth? The interceding of the lost is our duty as Christ’s disciples. The winning of souls is Christ’s work done through us.

Oh I could go on and on about what God has done to me and for me just by leading me to this Poly Day of Prayer. Maybe I will in person. All I know is that He has taken away my burden, He has restored me and I know I have a renewed hope that fills me with this faith and joy that no amount of words would be able to describe. I was lost, I am now found. Yes, it has taken me a long time. Yes, it has taken me a lot of mistakes. Yes, it has taken a lot of crying. But now I am found, and that’s what counts. No one, not a single person, is too lost to be found.

amyruthxxoo

i have just finished watching the first CD of Joan of Arc.

daddy is here in the living room listening to his and mummy’s wedding tape with all the ceremony and things. yea. things were recorded into tapes then. so sweet.((:

anyone wanna go for the Poly day of prayer in NP this Tuesday at 6pm? I want to. so just holler so we can pray together.

love lots.

amyruthxxoo.

i’d love to be taken by the hand to stare in awe at the NDP. maybe next time.

I’m knocking on Your door,
Won’t you answer?
I’m waiting for a word,
Or just a whisper;
But if You can’t answer me this time,
I can handle everthing just fine
‘Cause somehow I seem to think I have power,
And I know best how to make things better,
I try to carry everything alone,
But now the time has come to let go

To trust You with my life,
To believe You all the time,
And to leave my doubt behind,
Oh to trust You with my life.

Will I ever learn to stop and listen,
To keep knocking on Your door until it opens,
Teach me what it means to believe,
That You are strong enough to carry me

Oh, to trust You with my life,
To believe You all the time,
And to leave my doubt behind,
Oh, to trust You with my life.
And to give You everything,
All the deepest parts of me,
And to know You’re always right,
To trust You with my life.

Broken here before You on my knees,
Is my only hope of finding peace.

Thank you((:

amyruthxxoo