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I was wondering what I’d do with 3 cooling beauty masks. Well, tonight is the night. BurnAid will have to do for the rest of my body. There’s no point putting up a picture of me burnt like this. In my entire life I have not found anyone who gets as burnt as fast as me. I really need to watch it.

So bonding camp was wonderful but I must say that this is a rather hefty price to pay for such momentary enjoyment!

My friends tonight are BurnAid, masks and panadol. I don’t think work is an option for me tonight.

amyruth.xxoo

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pop021I need wine stoppers for my nose and ice cubes to stuff in my eyes.

Anyone want to volunteer for this gross  job?

amyruth.xxoo

logo_sundownI figured out my training schedule for the 1okm run. I’m one happy girl.((: This is to train me for the adidas sundown marathon in May. Hopefully I will succeed and the SC marathon will be better!

amyruth.xxoo

82190573Looking back
He sees it all
It was her first date the
night he came to call

Her dad said son
Have her home on time
And promise me you´ll never leave her side
He took her to a show in town
And he was ten feet off the ground

He was walking her home
And holding her hand
Oh the way she smiled it stole the
breath right out of him
Down that old road
With the stars up above
He remembers where he was the
night he fell in love
He was walking her home

Ten more years and a waiting room
At half past one
And the doctor said come in
and meet your son

His knees went weak
When he saw his wife
She was smiling as she said
he’s got your eyes
And as she slept he held her tight
His mind went back to that first night

He walked her through the
best days of her life
Sixty years together and he
never left her side

A nursing home
At eighty-five
And the doctor said it
could be her last night
And the nurse said Oh
Should we tell him now
Or should he wait until the
morning to find out
But when they checked her room that night
He was laying by her side

Oh he was walking her home
And holding her hand
Oh the way she smiled when he
said this is not the end
And just for a while they were eighteen
And she was still more
beautiful to him than anything
He was walking her home
He was walking her home

Looking back
He sees it all
It was her first date the
night he came to call

sb10070124r-001to the system. to me.

I’m not quite sure what to think let alone what to say. I think “sad” is one word to discribe it but it isn’t that simple. Awe, wonder, fear, confusion, disappointment, curiosity…. the list could go on.

Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.

We used to be best friends. I shouldn’t have ever let it come to an abrupt halt. I miss you.

amyruth.xxoo

moonI see the moon and the moon sees me

The moon sees the one that I want to see

So God bless the moon and God bless me

And God bless the one I want to see.

She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

amyruth.xxoo

73506586It was brought to my attention that I might be running the 10k alone. As in without any friends. And standing at the finish line does not count. So anyone?

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride. I love you because I know no other way then this. So close that your hand, on my chest, is my hand. So close, that when you close your eyes, I fall asleep.

amyruth.xxoo

79367994I get to spend an entire day at home doing NR((: no school.

home cooked food, uncombed hair, oversized shirts and cute boxers. what more could I ask for.xD

and I’ve finished gossip girl season 1. absolute madness. on to season 2 in a while.

the other night I saw the moon. it wasn’t half beautiful. it was full beauty. did you see it too?

amyruth.xxoo

200518841-0021Well, that’s my last open house that I’ll ever be involved in. And university doesn’t count. Who knows? I may never go to university.

It sucks. Real bad. Growing up is overrated. Being an adult is so overrated. I’m scared out of my pants at turning the big fat twooo ooooo. Like I said before: “when did it all happen?”

Fiddlesticks. Can’t I make it stop for a bit? A boyfriend, husband and family with a secure job seems interesting and “ideal” but there’s just something terribly alluring about childlike innocence and an almost-carefree lifestyle that vanishes on entering the working world or just leaving the fluttering teen-universe behind. And sorry boys, but NS does not count as the working world. It just doesn’t.

But even as I type this, time continues to tick. My cells continue to die and my body deteriorates with age. I could holler, scream and bawl my eyes out in frustration and sheer fear but – time waits for no man and man just looks on helplessly.

amyruth.xxoo

Responsibility, it really does suck. Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn’t go away. It can’t be avoided. Either someone makes us face it or we suffer the consequences.