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I’ve posted this many times before. But watching it again, something dawned on me.

I have the hamsters!!!

Will put a few pictures up soon.((: xoxo sayang!

amyruth.xxoo


Miss Elizabeth.

I have struggled in vain and can bear it no longer.

These past months have been a torment.
I came to Rosings for the single object of seeing you. I had to see you.

I have fought against judgement, my family’s expectation, the inferiority of your birth, my rank.

I will put them aside and ask you to end my agony.

I don’t understand.

I love you.

Most ardently.

Please do me the honour of accepting my hand.

Sir, I appreciate the struggle you have been through, and I am very sorry to have caused you pain. Believe me, it was unconsciously done.

Is this your reply?

Yes, sir.

Are you laughing at me?

No.

Are you rejecting me?

I’m sure the feelings which hindered your regard will help you overcome it.

Might I ask why with so little endeavor of civility I am thus repulsed?

I might as well inquire why with such evident a design of insulting me you chose to tell me that you liked me against your better judgement?

No, believe me…

If I was uncivil, then that is some excuse. But you know I have other reasons. You know I have!

What reasons?

Do you think anything might tempt me to accept the man who has ruined, perhaps forver,the happiness of a most beloved sister?

Do you deny it Mr Darcy: that you separated a young couple who loved each other, exposing your friend to center of the world for caprice and my sister to derision for disappointed hopes, and involving them both in misery of the acutest kind?

I do not deny it.

How could you do it?

Because I believed your sister indifferent to him.

Indifferent?

I watched them both carefully and realised his attachment
was deeper than hers.

That’s because she’s shy!

Bingley is modest and was persuaded she didn’t feel strongly.

Because you suggested it!

I did it for his own good.

My sister hardly shows her true feelings to me.

I suppose that you suspect that his.. his fortune had some bearing?

No! I wouldn’t do your sister the dishonour. Though it was suggested…

What was?

It was made perfectly clear that an advantageous marriage…

Did my sister give that impression?

No!no…

No. There was, however, I have to admit, the matter of your family…

Our want of connection? Mr Bingley didn’t seem to mention about that…

No, it was more than that.

How, sir?

It was the lack of propriety shown by your mother, younger sisters and, even on occasion, your father.

Forgive me. You and your sister I must exclude in this.

And what about Mr Wickham?

Mr Wickham?

What excuse can you give for your behaviour towards him?

You’ve take an eager interest in that gentleman

He told me of his misfortunes.

Oh, yes, his misfortunes have been great indeed.

You ruined his chances and yet you treat him with sarcasm.

So this is your opinion of me?

Thank you for explaining so fully. Perhaps these offences might have been overlooked had not your pride been hurt by my honesty by admitting scruples in our relationship.

Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of your circumstances?

And those are the words of a gentleman?

From the first moment I met you your arrogance and conceit, your selfish disdain for the feelings of others made me realise that you were the last man
in the world I could ever be prevailed upon to marry.

Forgive me, madam, for taking up so much of your time.

amyruth.xxoo

and I mumbled…

But I think of you whenever life gets me down.
I think of you whenever you’re not around.
Just to put your mind at ease:
You don’t owe me anything
You paid me well in memories.

amyruth.xxoo

p.s. look here. I say it again.

hamster_000002566309guinea-pig-01I am getting 2 adorable baby hamsters.(((: Influenced by Zijia and offered by Sayang.

Maybe I’ll get a guinea pig one day.(((:

amyruth.xxoo

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sb10062568bb-001Swing me just a little but higher, Obadiah, do

Swing me just a little bit higher and I’ll love you

Swing me over the garden wall

Tie me up so I cannot fall

Swing me just a little bit higher, Obadiah, do

amyruth.xxoo

ps. I’ll see you next Sunday. No msn, facebook or blog. SMS if necessary. ((:

83976235sorry.I haven’t been a good girl in updating this blog of mine. There isn’t much to say. School has pretty much ended except for exams and clinical attachments. The highlight of my week has to be yesterday: Valentine’s Day. The story about how my plans slowly came to life is amazing. It’s a bit long but I think I should post it here.

I had been reading a book by Shannon Ethridge: Completely His. In this book Shannon does a fantastic job in explaining God’s wish to have a highly intimate relationship with each of us. She uses the analogy of a bride and bridegroom. For about 3/4 of the book I had just read and didn’t really grasp the depth of this desire and need for such intimate love. Disappointment came knocking on my door about a week ago and the thirst and realisation of such an intimate relationship and it’s implications came into being. In sheer ignorance I just celebrated His love for a bit and then got on with life. I thought I was all fine, I didn’t need any guy in my life to complicate matters and I believed Christ was more than enough for me (of which He is!) so I bustled about trying to be all self-sufficient.

Alistar had arranged a bible study on the evening of Vday. I, in all my enthusiasm of single-hood I promptly announced to my group that I didn’t have any valentine and wasn’t planning to get one so I’d be going for the bible study. I saw my reply about a day later and it seemed so pathetic. I kept thinking about it and just before going to bed I realised that in actual fact in going for the bible study, I was going to have the hottest date and read a small part of the greatest love letter ever written. God was my date. It turned out that I spent my Vday evening with 4 other army guys from YG. Guitar Hero, food and a good talk about relationships and what we should look for in the other half. It was a blast. So now, if you were to ask me, out of all the Vday celebrations I have been to, which was the most memorable, I’d have to say 2009. I have my hot date to thank!((((: Seriously, He had planned it so well with hints for the entire week if not month!!

amyruth.xxoo

80190309A wallop of jubilee. A wallop of disappointment. A wallop of inspiration.

Then I end “kinda-asystole”.

It only hurt the first time so you’d know how much it didn’t hurt the second time.

Did I tell you that I’m gonna get married soon? giggles

amyruth.xxoo

WITH CHRIST IN THE VESSEL WE CAN SMILE AT THE STORM.

13j06ucrm_largeoh oh oh.

So I can’t go out and shop at the moment. Guess looking at them online is fun too. I’ll go search for this pretty little thing when I next go out.((:

And it’s beginning to get to me
That I know more of the stars and sea
Than I do of what’s in your head
Than I do of what’s in your head

amyruth.xxoo

(topshop in June will be fab.UKUKUK)

200312036-002Cellulitis, edema, fluid retention. Call it what you want. What it comes down to is that my feet are crazily swollen and red.  And an entire day of walking around and never elevating my feet hasn’t helped one bit. The skin is beginning to peel off and I feel as if I’m wearing compression stockings.

It’s like I’m practicing for pregnancy!!

And I would kiss the sweat from your brow. And you would let me.

amyruth.xxoo