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sb10068869a-001I wanted to post the song Longer but realised that it was redundant. Another missed opportunity today? I feel empty and tired again. Maybe it’s the thought of the impending week just draining what’s left of me. Maybe it’s another week without…? I’m not quite sure.

Shall post this instead since I’m listening to it right now.

Beneath the cross of Jesus
I find a place to stand,
And wonder at such mercy
That calls me as I am;
For hands that should discard me
Hold wounds which tell me, “Come.”
Beneath the cross of Jesus
My unworthy soul is won.

Beneath the cross of Jesus
His family is my own—
Once strangers chasing selfish dreams,
Now one through grace alone.
How could I now dishonor
The ones that You have loved?
Beneath the cross of Jesus
See the children called by God.

Beneath the cross of Jesus—
The path before the crown—
We follow in His footsteps
Where promised hope is found.
How great the joy before us
To be His perfect bride;
Beneath the cross of Jesus
We will gladly live our lives.

Wait, wait for the dawn my dear
Wait till the sun gets here
Wait, wait till the sun shines through
Wait till the sky is blue
Wait, wait till the signs are right
Wait till the perfect time
Wait till you don’t doubt no more
Wait till you know for sure
And you will wait too long he will be gone



I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know.

I’m not going to start explaining myself.




sb10069042b-001So what has been happening in the past month?

Ruth and Paris were here for a good three weeks that flew by so fast we all couldn’t figure out where it had gone. 8 more weeks then I’ll be off to the UK for a mere 10 days. We had so much fun together. Ate, shopped, swam… I think now that we’re older we tend to understand how fleeting moments can be and we treasure them so much more. Watching Mama Mia the movie definitely brought that point home too.

Induction day was good. The freshies are always so early it’s quite funny. FOC starts tomorrow and I think I’ll just be walking around trying to do my stuff. Done my admin work though I’m sure there will be more to do during the camp.

Ward 47 was good. The patients were nice but like I kept saying, there isn’t much to do in that ward. Well, nothing much that we’re allowed to do. But the staff there was great. I learnt a lot of things and the 3 weeks disappeared in a flash.

Good Friday and Easter were slow and reflective. I really needed that and Thanks be to God that I have matured and it actually meant more to me this year. Christ died for me – such an unworthy candidate. I could go on and on and try to explain this to you but you’d have to realise how dirty, sick, sin-saturated, unworthy, pathetic you are compared to God before you’d see where I’m coming from. No other religion has a god who lowered himself to the lowly level of humans and took the punishment for their sins on Himself. And then of course He rose from the dead! Which means He is alive right now even as you read this! And in heaven He sits at the right hand of the father and intercedes for us meaning He pleads to God for our forgiveness when we are foolish, ignorant, proud, cunning, mean, rude, uncaring… and He never stops! Never sleeps never rejects us as long as we acknowledge His salvation and sovereignty in our lives.

Oh well, I’m 6859 days old as of today. That’s old.

hohum. But then again, that’s 6859 days with God!!