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I cannot begin to comprehend, let alone explain, just how evident God has been in my life just within the past 2-3 weeks. It’s not that he wasn’t there before, but rather that I am so sensitive about it now. Praise God for that! He is working in my life in ways I could never imagine or hope for. He permeates every nook and cranny of this warped life I’ve been living. I have a hope now I’ve never had before and I pray he will lead me as I strive to show this new found hope to the world and everyone who will watch and listen.

Sleep has been farther from my mind than I had hoped. And today’s worship songs have really spoken to me. As I seek God’s will in my life and those around me, I get caught up worrying that nothing will work out. But when do we learn to stop? Hand it over to God and wait? I want to do that. I want to run to him with all the burdens and throw it down at his feet. May it be that I approach his throne of grace heavy laden and downcast but return with songs of joy and a skip in my step.

He’s always been there. He is here. And He’s never going to leave.

Deal with that!


For all your times of laughter
In every hopeful prayer
When the world weighs on your shoulders
Through sorrow and your despair
With everything, with every breath, praise the Lord

When the night seems so long – throw your hands to the sky
You can sing a new song – wipe the tears from your eyes
When you’re weak, He is strong
He can heal your wounded soul
And calm the storm inside



the-proposalIt has been a while since I’ve sat down to update my site. Just for the date I’ll do some recounting of the past experiences and happenings.

Exams were not too bad. Just hope they don’t moderate the marks. God was good and kept me sane through it all. Am rather blasé about the upcoming attachments. They’ll be long lasting til the end of February with a 2 week break in between. There should be time to run/swim everyday if I am not too tired. Have to be disciplined though. I have my new L.I.F.T racers though not in the colour I wanted. Gotten a few other things here and there.

The best part of the past few weeks has to be centered around friends. I spent so much time with Meidan studying, chatting, going out that when the time comes where we hardly get to see each other, I will be so very sad. Though I doubt the hectic schedule of the hospital will allow me to wallow in such emotions. The last thing we did together was with Yibing and Adora. Watching The Proposal was a blast. I needed the laugh especially after Sunday and Monday.

I’m not going to write about Sunday’s episode. Seeing Michelle, Travis and Amoz was a blessing and knowing God was with all of us throughout that day really humbles me. In essence I can’t go on living my life wasted. Reading John Piper’s book (Don’t Waste Your Life), the accident, the video on CTBP about letters from hell, the conversations with friends and family; life isn’t that simple. Sunday was a wake up call. Forking out a lump sum of money is the least of my concerns. Yes, it may cost me my graduation trip and many other small things but I am glad that I have gained more than lost in this accident. If you ask me, I could tell you how God was truly with me as the railings went down and the world spun around. To deny his presence and omnipotence in his world would be the greatest mistake of my life – of anyone’s life!

Ok. I shall end here.

Til next time.(:


ps. I’ll write about John Piper’s book another time.


hand in handOh my oh my oh my. I’ve been reading my friendster testimonials for kicks. Amoz gave me the idea last night. And I’m killing myself laughing. It’s a sudden cascade of memories and emotions flooding my mind. Somewhat as if the dam is about to burst. I seriously miss those days. Not to say that I want to continue to be the player I was just that… well, I miss all of them. Prisca, Michelle, Melissa, Zinnia, Amelia, Eve, Amoz, Amos, Calvin, Terence (idiot!), Charisse, Daniel, Belinda, Vanessa, Shehlin, Kellyn, Linda, Gloria…. the list could go on forever. We were at the age where paying compliments to others was the norm. Now, we shy away from such affection. To be told that you are treasured, loved, missed, admired, adored and so much more…why can’t we?

I am only beginning to grasp the influence I actually had on so many people just a few years back. A part of me is bubbling over with joy and another part just aches badly. What I wouldn’t give to just turn back the clock for a sliver of that past.

But I am thankful that there are a few friends God has brought back into my life to make a fresh start. It’ll be different but different in a good way.

It is by chance we met,by choice we became friends. Friendship is a strange thing. We find ourselves telling each other the deepest details of our lives. Things we don’t even share with our families who raised us. But what is a friend? A confidant? A lover? A shoulder to cry on?An ear to listen? A heart to feel? A friend is all these things-and more. No matter where we met, I call you a friend. A word so small, yet so large in meaning. A word filled with emotion. It is true, great things come in small packages. Once the package of friendship has been opened, it can never be closed. It is a book always written,waiting to be read and enjoyed. We may have our disagreements,we may argue,we may concern one another. Friendship is a unique bond that lasts through it all. No one knew I’d tell you so much. I never knew, but it happened. To God who keeps our friendship be the glory and praise.


knightI have made You too small in my eyes
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have believed in a lie
That You were unable to help me.
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
Oh Lord, be magnified

Be magnified, Oh Lord
You are highly exalted
And there is nothing You can’t do
Oh Lord, my eyes are on You
Be magnified,
Oh Lord, be magnified

I have leaned on the wisdom of men
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show yourself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
Oh Lord be magnified




ps. mummy & daddy will be here in 140minutes. ((: